Curing infertility*

Curing Infertility

We should go to the bedroom. 
You and your wife
should lie on the bed.
I will close the door
and play classical music.
Lights out.
You mustn't touch each other
and you mustn't move.
I want you both to stare
at an imaginary dot
on the other side of the ceiling.
Look up. Look through it.

Meanwhile in another room,
I will wear canvas pants
with only a string holding them up.
I will touch my toes ten times.
I will slowly do stretches,
breathing and thinking
about my childhood:
riding bikes, eating dinner.
I will remember a song
that I sang in a school play.
I will know all of the words.

I want you both to be thinking
about food. You should
try to imagine every single
year of your life,
what you ate that year,
what it tasted like.
I want you to think
about the major food groups.
Imagine vegetables.
Imagine Neanderthals eating
the marrow of lion bones.
Think about
how lion marrow tastes.
Start imagining recipes that
use lion marrow, a lion tooth broth,
frozen marrow on a stick.

When I come back
I will turn off the music
and turn on the lights.
I will ask you to hold hands
with each other

and get very close.

I will say, "Remember being a kid?"
In unison you will say, "I too was young."
I will say, "Remember eating?"
You will say "I grew from nothing."
I will say, "Eating is like giving birth."
You will say, "I too was born."

I will touch you both on the feet.
You'll get up and we'll walk outside.
It will be a humid day in early May.

Outside I'll say, "I've loved you two
for a long time and I've been
waiting my whole life to say this..."

You will be surprised but
you will say, "We have waited too."
And I'll say, "Not anymore."

2003 Peter Davis

I wish it was this easy.  

My little sis just phoned me. She said she and her husband decided a few weeks ago it is time to try for a little brother or sister for Morgan...they tried once...and she is pregnant. 

With little Morgan, she went off the pill on Xmas....and 3 weeks later she was pregnant. 

M3 and I have been trying for 8 years...and I thought I'm actually ok with where we are...the only way to describe how I'm feeling is to use the sea as an example. It is all calm and peaceful...the sun is shining..life is good...and then all of a sudden a huge wave come, and throw you over...the wave just hit! 

I don't know right now how to swim...xx