Saturday, 1 December 2007
Early Xmas...
Tuesday, 27 November 2007
Life is out there...
This magical beauty wrote yesterday about M A G I C ! And this gorgeous jewel wrote about 'choosing' J O Y ! These past few days I was wondering what? where? how? should I or not? Am I? Will I one day be? Questions...questions and questions...with no answers...then I read Mccabe's post about magic and it felt as if life was returning to every vessel of my body!
I've always choose to do something for someone...I LUVVVV it! It makes me appreciate life...and people...and when doing something for someone else, I love myself more.
I told my sister-in-law about my blog and in the same sentence of being lonely with no friends here. I also abrutly stopped doing anything for anybody as my family and some friends were always telling me how mad I was for going in such extremes of doing things for people I don't even know (which I love...and it's not BIG things...small...just to let you know things. They also said that I tend to do too much...and everybody don't like it? sigh...anyway, i've tried to change that, and with changing that...lock myself up in my home...reading blogs! :-) which is great! but not balanced? or contact with the outside world...) it just blows my mind...I've just realised that that is who I am. That is what makes me alive and happy....I should do what comes naturally to me and keep on being who I know I am!
anyway, my sister-in-law replied with a bright and happy smile...no more loneliness..you just write everything on your blog! And I hear her voice in the back of my head...all the time...so Liz, thank you!
After I've read Mccabe's invitation (you all have to read it!!!) I remembered all the little things I use to do for people...and I came back! Standing up from the past 9 months...and I cannot wait to start doing it! Oh...doing the magic...spreading the joy! For anyone...with anyone....which ever way I feel comfortable with! I'm so excited! Starting tonight with my brother and his wife.....sprinkling little hearts of magic into their bed...without them knowing...cannot wait...(then fear: my brother will say something negative!...but I don't care...my sister-in-law will love it!)
Choosing joy? Difficult? Sometimes very difficult. You want to choose the joy with everything in you, but it feels as if you get lost on your way to joy!? But these past 2 days was fantastic! It felt as if I was floating on a cloud...with all the imaginations of magic all around me...I'm smiling from ear to ear just thinking what the people's reaction are going to be...tonight I love life! I love magic! I love all of you reading...and even those who are not! Tonight...I love myself extremely much!!! And I have realised that there is a life out there...missing me!
Sunday, 25 November 2007
Will you marry me...
35th Wedding Anniversary
We celebrate their LOVE! PATIENCE! HUMOR! We celebrate them!
Tuesday, 20 November 2007
Monday, 19 November 2007
Healing love...
Let's all send healing love to this gorgeous woman... Healing is an amazing journey
Pain is an incredible teacher
Apathy is a doorway to depression
Frustration is a mask for anger
Disease is a pure self-punishment
Courage is a risk worth taking
Openness is changing a victim mindset
Health is a relative term and goal
Patience is a reliable test
Sunday, 11 November 2007
Silence
Then tonight, when the house was cleaned and all the evidence of family and loved ones packed away...in came the silence...and the mind starts jumping....like skipping with a rope, but getting your feet caught inbetween the rope with every jump. It's as if the whole world close down on you and it's only you and your mind...this is a place I don't like. In here I feel scared and lonely...I sent my friend a message telling her how I felt and she just replied with...'you ARE enough'...which opened the world again...but I find it difficult to be who I want to be every day.
I wonder in times like tonight why I'm scared to alone with myself - I use to love it. Think it has something to do with allowing the universe to talk and me receiving whatever it is giving to me..
I came across this website tonight which started 'stirring the mind'. At first it was all positive and energized emotion because I sometimes think this is what I want to do...then I think of my best friend and husband who would never in a million years do it...then I wonder am I suppose to 'not do it'...will I be able to do it is someone phone me now and say pls join us? Then I wonder what am I suppose to do!!! I think of this amazing brave women who are doing it and not waiting (like me) for 'things to happen'. I wonder so many times what made her decide to go, how did she pack up and left for Afghanistan and then I wonder what traits do you as a human being have to have to be able to work in extremely difficult conditions.
I think I'll just go and sit with 'silence' for a while...maybe if I sit long enough, and listen I'll receive an answer...good night!
xox
Saturday, 10 November 2007
Family
Wednesday, 7 November 2007
Whispers...
Did you know that whenever you whisper, "Can I help you..." to someone quietly in your mind, someone over here sheds a tear and an army of angels are sent?
And, did you know that whenever you whisper, "I love you..." to someone quietly in your mind, someone over here sheds a tear, healing begins, an army of angels are sent, and 10,000 bells are rung?
Actually, you even have your own marching band that follows you everywhere....
I love you,
The Universe"
I received this message just now from the UNIVERSE!
I've been surrounded by my own marching band today...and I only realised it now!
Tuesday, 6 November 2007
Sun shining through...
Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a womanPhenomenally.
Phenomenal woman, That's me.
I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a womanPhenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,'
Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
-Maya Angelou-
Monday, 29 October 2007
Kindred Spirits
Sunday, 28 October 2007
Phenomenal Women!

ANE...wife....daughter...companion...woman...soulmate...friend....sister...angel
DAPHNE...fighter...funny lady...mother....cancer survivor...grandmother....wife...mother...inspiration...believer...angel...
BETH...artist....daughter...friend...angel....believer....young woman....spirited...godchild...
ELNETTE...mother...fairy-godmother....anerma...strong...artist...bold...exceptional...friend...angel...woman!
Half term
Yellow....for sunshine! Friendship! Love! Happiness!!!
For all things coming...family! 35th wedding anniversaries!! Working with children!!! Friendships with people you have not met...but having a profound influence in your life! for friends that are in your life now, here. Yellow for friends who gave you the feeling of 'bliss' when they were here...
Yellow is also for everything new..new job! New people! new areas in your life that you are exploring on your own...or with God.
Yellow is for phenomenal women! & men!
I am Yellow!
Friday, 5 October 2007
Wednesday, 3 October 2007
Tuesday, 2 October 2007
Change...
Sunday, 30 September 2007
Love is all around...








